tanyas

Woke up this morning and realized what I did last night, and  ya know I am proud of myself, Passed on the chips and junk for the usual breakfast, took a vitamin and and refused to sit down for the usual day of t.v. Making my plan for a brand new grocery list this week, And talked to my daughters who are going to join with me we are going to do this together and I feel really good about it all.

Ok….it’s 1:00am and i just ate for the 7th time today(and nothing good for me) and realized that I cannot just sit around thinking about doing this, So here I am asking for help… I have talked it over with myself 1000 times of what I need to do but for some reason thats as far as I get,  I am watching my family and myself get fatter and more unhealthy, I have to make this step. I guess I just don’t understand why it’s so hard and so scarry? I just need to make a commitment to myself. Right? Why cant I do that? I think I have finaly come to the point that I need friends who understand where I am coming from not my in shape boyfriend who I think although loves me to death is wondering where the old me has gone, and my daughters are gaining right along with me just laugh it off, Friends who can eat anything and are stick thin. I am tired of being tired all the time. Am I ready for this? to make a serious commitment?? YES YES I am!!

Now where do I go from here I have no idea on how to even start, Help?